The biggest turn of events happened to me at the mark of the new decade. Not more than 5 hours into my new year I lost my car, as well as my license and worst of all, I lost my camera(@Birthday Party). This definitely turned my World upside down and really grounded the arrogant prick I used to be. They say things happen for a reason, and this "turn of events" per se, definitely happened for a good reason. I needed to grow up.
I initially envisioned my 2010 to be a laid back year. For one, it will be the year that I finish up at Kapiolani Community College, and move on to the "bigs" at the UH Manoa campus and second, the Chinese astrology books my father purchased for me and my sister read that, the "Tiger" years are the best for us "Pigs".
Nonetheless, shit happens and when shit happens, you gotta make that shit turn into gold.
My New Years Day was not spent celebrating but, instead clearing out my wrecked car and analyzing my actions. I felt stupid, and I still feel stupid but I know that accepting stupidity is the stupidest thing to do. Despite the ridicule I may recieve, I know that I must now catch The Bus to both school and work. Of course, I've never really had a problem with public transportation but, it can't beat the excitement of driving.
Today was the first day of my new life...
My father had an expected reaction, not a single word spoken to me the entire day. As I was about to depart, I told him "bye dad!" with enthusiasm, an uninterested moan and a lazy wave was his only reaction. I then ran into my mother who had just arrived home from her half day at work. She insisted on driving me down to Pearl Ridge mall where I could then take the #20 bus to "straightshot" it into Waikiki. I refused and let her know that I need to suffer for what I've done. I started my journey.
The bus ride opened my eyes.
Not just through various colors and sights but deeper.
I understand a bit about myself and I am trying constantly trying to find out more. I understand that I gotta do what I gotta do. It's when you have nothing when you start to appreciate the small things and when you appreciate the small things you appreciate life. I am becoming older thus, i must also simultaneously become wiser as well. I can't be living the "invincible" life I've been so used to living. I know that I must change as a person and accept faith as it comes but, also use good judgement to determine my faith. That is how you read the future.
So, like every girl I've ever loved...
We both go our separate ways, and in this case, we will never see each other again. My only memory is the black weighted shift knob I used in order to connect with her.
You're always in my heart...
I almost forgot to add(actually I did, and it's terrible that I did)...My friend was in my car and it was stupid for me to be driving 5 mph over the speed limit cause I almost killed him. It was that 5 mph that could have prevented that crash. I highly respect him for backing me up to the police officer after the crash and I greatly appreciate him bailing me out of jail. Sorry for everything.
So what would you do?
If life handed you my current situation?
I already know my plan.
I hope this works out.
In high spirits! Let's do this!
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